You look different, you act differently, you speak differently, you think differently, it’s all about the change when you change you take all your burden away and throw that thing on somebody else’s back.
You know that you trust that, it’s your feeling, it’s your gut instinct talking to you.
It’s your survival instincts keeping you win, keeping you safe, keeping you alive?
Why do we have to go all through this hardship and change and pain and anguish just to erase some memories or bad habits of someone?
Why do we have to write every time the same old sentence just to be taught differently?
I’m just saying you know?
It’s hard, it’s no easy job for just being you, yourself.
Keeping your shit together might be just the hardest thing you could ever possibly do in this life, I mean for real just look outside and enjoy the view, what do you see out there?
I’m just asking because this is very tempting to me as it is to you.
I might just go for a walk or something just to let you know how my day went because I’m feeling something and I don’t know if it is love if it is pain, or if it is just fear of the unknown.
My own religion is based upon, truth, forgiveness, and equality for an opportunity.
In my religion we all have a chance at life, we all have the right to live, we all have our lows and our highs, we all have our pleasures and our hurts, in my religion and the way I see it I was a mentor to you guys in the past but as a King, I will say that no matter how far you know you can go there is nothing more valuable and precious than time.
Time will always tell you the truth, time will always answer your questions, time will always heal you.
Time is more valuable than money time is more valuable than anything money can buy, time can even make you feel like you count in this world and it is ok to have a different opinion than others.
Time will tell you it’s ok to live a life nobody understands, time will always tell you how to dream more and eat less. Time will always have your back, time will always be true to you because you are time and we are one.
Time will tell you how to manage your work.
Time will be there for you when you know you’re not worthy of something.
Time will make you understand your own path in life, time will keep you up late at night and say to you in your head, it’s ok to not sleep, time will tell you it’s ok to not go to work, time will tell you it’s ok to be different than others.
I want to be rich and famous one day, this day could come sooner, or this day can come faster.
But I have the courage to ask the universe for it. And if I want it bad enough I just might get it.
Someday I will be old and I want to think of myself as a caring, sweet, and forgiving man, not to tell you even wise maybe.
I want to be a wise old man at the time of my life there was a rupture between hearts and relationships.
I was charged for saying someone’s name in a public video on YouTube and for that thing I deleted my whole channel because the police called me and that person pressed charges against me because I told her name in public.
This fame is not even something you can joke with anymore, I got loads of people reading and watching my shit right now.
I may not be the smartest man alive but I know I will manage to get through one way or another.
Forgiving is like forming a new healthy habit, you get rid of the old bad habits in order to form new healthy habits, this is the way I see it, It’s just like cleaning your room or getting rid of the trash, that is why we get rid of the old like the old must die for the new babies to be born again, this is the circle of life when someone dies somebody is getting born.
That is the way to do it, it is just nature that’s all I can say.
Nature believed in us to do good and we did well until we forgot where nature is, so we are now actually are in search of nature.
We are searching to gain back to our connection with nature in order to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle and be fresh yet again man has driven far from its primordial truth and sense.
We have to go back to our roots instead of always pointing forward.
We must go back to where we were before all the things that made us weak happened.
This is our truth, our truth is inside us all, this means we all have to give it some meaning, no matter at what cost this is.
The meaning of life means fulfilling your dharma and let go of your bad karma for you to gain good karma.
This is the process of evolution, we get rid of the old to gain the new.
This process works in all stages of life all circles all systems and all matrixes.
This truth is also a paradox, why? Because some bad can also be good for somebody else, I mean if something bad happens to you this can mean that something good is happening for somebody else.
Please don’t live your life as the victim.
Be the warrior you are not the sheep that you see yourself as being.
I got these ideas in my head that makes me think I am all alone in this world and there is no one there for me at all times, I don’t have anybody who to share all this knowledge with a person, a flower, a follower, just anything, not even a message back did I not receive people just ignore me all the time and think I am needy.
This is not true in fact this makes me write or make videos about what I think all the time like I’m some kind of Guru or God or Messiah, this is what I think of myself and the pure feeling of loneliness is just like a void who attracts nothing but pain inside.
This is how you feel when your heart has been broken before so many times by all the people you have ever loved and will ever love.
Nothing makes me feel this emptiness this void inside of me this black hole that I have.
I have everything I need and I’m still not happy with what I have, I don’t even know what I need anymore, I got a house, a car, some money, two parents who believe in me, a little brother that hates me and what is left?
I feel like it’s something missing I still feel it deep down inside to my core self.
I still think that something is missing from me but I don’t know what, like it has been stolen or something like that.
I need more, I need more truth, more love, and affection, and pleasure, I need more life, I need myself now more than ever.
I need to know the truth of things that have been yet happened.
I need to know it all.
I need to know how things work these days, I need to wake up, I need an awakening to happen, I need you guys as much as I need myself.
But what is missing deep down into my core system?
It’s like you’re never there for me when I need it the most.
It’s like you left me for granted.
It’s like being abandoned by someone.
It’s like loneliness when you are surrounded by people.
It’s just like depression.
I think my dharma is to plant as many trees as possible on this earth at no matter what cost.
The trees are the lungs of the earth, they need to breathe if we cut down the trees we have to plant new ones, this is the circle of life.
I think the planet needs more trees than people actually.
If we cannot plant them at least don’t cut them down because probably in the near future you couldn’t breathe oxygen anymore.
The trees of the earth are his lungs, the earth breathes from the trees, the world needs us as much as it needs it’s trees if you plant a tree just know that whenever you do that you bring new life into this earth.
I am not your ordinary friend, I am not your ordinary dude, I am great, I am the greatest, I am the best, I am the most beautiful person you will ever meet, I am the God of all men and women, no matter the race or skin color I am the God of all life and living beings cone to me for peace quiet and love to all mankind.
I am the King of all, I am the universe combo ed into one entity
I am the one.
I am visible public and sharing with you guys my own knowledge and experiences.
This is my life, I am the ruler of my own life, this is my path, I am the ruler of my own path and my own way, I am the ruler of my own destiny.
If I fail you all fail with me, so never give up on your dreams no matter how big they may be.
I am going to sum this up because I might think that you guys should know where did I get my name from (Asethabalanar).
This name came up to me in a dream and the day after I was asleep and I woke up it just popped into my head like from nowhere.
I managed to break it down into two major World of Warcraft Wrath of The Lich King characters.
While I was a kid and until now I have had many dreams concerning World of Warcraft, this being my favorite game of them all.
I managed to break down my name into “Asetha” and “Balanar”.
Asetha comes from the name of Arthas which I decomposed into being the initiative, and it went from Arthas to Asetha.
Balanar comes from the Night Stalker from Dota Allstars the first icefrog map of the Warcraft 3 The Frozen Throne game.
Balanar is a little bit more complicated than Asetha because it sums up a devil.
Balanar is from dota but has meaning as Mal’Ganis from World of Warcraft.
If you have seen or played World of Warcraft you might have seen that the name Mal’Ganis was the name of the Dreadlord which Arthas followed to Northrend to destroy.
In his journey to Northrend Arthas found Frostmourne the sword of the Lich King and Arthas became the new Lich King after finding his armor also.
Asethabalanar is a combination of both Arthas and Mal’Ganis is of good and evil just like the ying and yang.
Now you have seen my genesis and where does this name come from, it is myself in the pure form of evolution of growing up and growing old.
I tend to preach in what I believe in, I do not want to lie, I want you all to know the truth of me and my genesis, I come from a poor family from the countryside, my parents fell in love and I was the first child of them, I have a brother named Andrei.
I and my brother get along very well.
I love him very much, he is just like me, instead, I was the firstborn.
I have to take care of my little brother because he is 18 right now and needs to go to college. I have to be his guide in life because my parents are old now.
I have to make my brother understand what freedom feels like, he is just a teenager now but I have known him since his birth.
I will always protect and love Nd cherish my brother because he is my family.
It is very hard for me to spell it this way, but Bruce Lee was just like me.
He had the same will.
He had the same views on life.
He had everything he needed in order to perform well.
He had it all.
I am so sad that he died so suddenly and early in life.
I am so sad that he couldn’t even say goodbye to his loved ones.
I am so sad that he did not have the chance to kiss his children and wife goodbye.
I slowly begin to realize the fact that culture and truth are evenly combined into one thing, and that is patience.
If you are patient with yourself you will do great things in life.
If you do not follow the rules of by the book that you read or need you do not practice.
This practical illusion seems very hard to make a cooperation with but I say that even illusions are real.
If you feel the need to contradict me you shall do it.
But if you feel the need to please me please be gentle with my own soul.